Do you hate me, Jesus?

I promised myself I wouldn't moan about my love troubles and relationship problems on here.

But I need somewhere to write don't I?

Better out than in I guess.

I've basically unintentionally hurt the girl I love.

Not gonna go too into it. There's so much detail.

The worst part is, she's lost all trust for me.

And she won't believe I love her.

(Before people assume this, I did not cheat on her. It's just an unfortunate turn of events.)

Maybe, given time, I can be forgiven.

I hope so.

I really hate the thought of losing her.

I hate the thought of knowing she's no longer my other half.

I hate the thought that none of this was meant to happen.

In a way, I hate myself for letting it happen.

I apologise to everyone for this extremely emotional post.

Just needed to let it out.